Twist

TWIST

Every story has an end but in life every end is just a new beginning.

All I can do is cry and hope that eventually, I can find a way to ease the pain and sorrow I feel, deep down inside. I’ve been living my life the way I want it, from crazy, nonsense yet worthwhile childhood to complicated, thrilling and most of all extremely happy teen life. I just never thought that someday, I may have to start again from the very beginning and worse, I have to do it ALONE.

How I feel?

No one can completely understand how I feel, for no one is in my exact situation right now. Why is life this unfair? Why do things happen when you least expect them to? Why do my thoughts and my feelings contradict with what is supposedly right? Why do we have to be the happiest person now and be the most miserable one later? Why do destiny have to bring two hearts together when in the end, it will also tear them apart? How sad of it. Why does change has to complicate my life?

So many questions, I need an answer. So many thoughts run down my head and I can’t decide on what I should think of…I’m getting insane.

Life is uncontrollable, unpredictable and most of all unexpected. As I grow older and as each life situation worsen or gets better, I realized a lot of things yet most of them is still unbearable in my confused mind and wounded heart.

-You can never force yourself into something when you don’t want to. It takes time.

Don’t push yourself too hard. Simply be yourself and don’t worry too much. Things will happen if they’re meant to. Don’t LET GO if you’re still not prepared. Regrets will keep bothering you yet you should know when to stop. Don’t keep yourself hanging and waiting for the impossible and the complicated.

-Patience is a virtue, I guess.

Wait as long as you know you’re still waiting for something. No one knows, maybe someday it will all pay off. Don’t let yourself regret the day that you decided to quit. Most importantly, follow your heart. It will lead you to your happiness and contentment.

-You can never justify something when you yourself haven’t prove it yet..

Together Forever…This is only for married and unconditionally in love couples whereas through thick and thin and no matter what happened, still their love remained undeniably the same. I guess it’s too early for me to conclude my happy ending with him. Yet there’s nothing wrong in hoping that someday my dream will come true…again. Well, if you’re in love right now, cherish it yet don’t expect too much of forever. Remember that change is constant.

-Love makes the world go round.

True enough, love makes you think and feel the worth of your life. Remember that in love, you should always be true. Never use someone to move on and never force yourself to let go unless the person you love is already HAPPY with his/her someone new…ehem If all the heartaches haven’t disappear, learn to wait and time will heal. True love can wait… I hope so. I believe that someday, I can be happy, again.

-Memories will always last.

People may change and may separate ways but you can never take away the fact that once in your life, there was this very special person who touched your heart in a way that no one else could. There will be memories which will keep you waiting and you’ll find yourself going back to where it all started.

Finally, life is TWISTED.

You can’t control everything. You can always predict what will happen next but most of the time, our thoughts are not accurate. You can expect to get hurt and disappointed. Yet, life is much more of what it seems. Your happiness awaits you. Just learn to appreciate and open your eyes to all the possibilities YET, stick to what you believe, believe in your dreams and dream that it will sooner happen. You’ll realize how MAGICAL life is.

-Lastly, but most importantly, TRUST GOD.

Be rest assured that everything happens according to HIS will and each obstacle aims to teach us a lesson. Never doubt in His intentions. God loves us the most and plans the BEST for us.

I just really can’t understand myself. I just need to unload. All I’ve written is just crap. I don’t even – whatever, at least I’ve let it all out. I owe it a lot to my very special, super – loved, seemingly perfect friend Keanne Ragotero who inspired me in her blogs and distracted my points of view in a positive way that I learned to open my eyes to all the possibilities yet still stick to what I really want to happen. Life is twisted…and the rest is still unwritten. You’ll never know how surprising tomorrow may be.

*to my beloved prince

We’re going to be two worlds apart but still, I’m hoping that one day we’re going to have our “happily ever after”. You made me happy in ways you never see. Till then. =]